I had an unlikely conversation this afternoon at the baseball park. A friend and fellow little league coach came over to me and said, "you wanna see something scary?" As he showed my email entry in his smart phone, featuring the icon I use for Gmail and on this blog and elsewhere. I told him it was a self-portrait, that the original hangs in my wife's office. When he stared at me blankly, I struggled to fill the conversational void, telling him I had intended it to be a "warts and all" piece, for which I photographed myself first thing in the morning when I looked my worst, and then used a very soft, very dark pencil to "crank up the contrast," if you will. Still no response, so I blathered on, saying it was inspired by the work of Hyper-Realists like Chuck Close, though of course on an entirely different scale.
"Well, in any case, it kinda creeped me out when it showed up on my phone like that."
Clearly he hadn't been fishing for my artist's statement. But the conversation made me think about things like intentionality and how we talk about art. It made me think about straight talk vs. bullshit and even real gut level stuff like one person's deep love for a piece and another's visceral dislike or discomfort.
But it also make me think about how we classify our own efforts as "serious work" as opposed to experiments, which is how I think of most of what I'm doing these days. If I do think of something as "serious" when I set out to work on it, I'm often disappointed in the results. Unless I obsess over every stroke of the process.
As it happens, I drew that self-portrait on relatively cheap, Strathmore 300 sketch paper rather than high quality drawing paper or board, so I don't reckon I set out to do a "keeper." And who really knows if I was thinking about Hyper-Realism and Chuck Close and all that when I made the drawing? I think of it now because we have a refrigerator magnet of his portrait of Philip Glass that I see every day of my life. I did the drawing, and my wife especially liked it, so I ended up cutting a nice mat and framing it.
Well, apropos of nothing, here are some pen-and-ink "doodles" I did during family movie night this weekend. These are out of the sketch diary, so clearly not destined for framing.
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| "Leaf" -- India Ink and Graphite (glare is from the pencil. grrr.) |
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| "Head" -- Ink and graphite |
PS -- I suppose the title's only vaguely related to the content of this post. That's the way it goes sometimes.